Distance

i'm just not a good daughter, to both of my parents. i don't know what to do when kita kat tengah-tengah between our divorced parents. and it's always me who got blamed. what should i do? is it because i'm the eldest. i always screw everything up, with my own family, my friends, even boyfriends. i try to better but i'm always caught up in the situation. maybe i should stay away from everybody to avoid any misunderstanding, me hurting others' feelings. maybe i should start a new life somewhere else.