hard times :'(

Sometimes i would just love to hear someone asking me what problems i have. to be honest i really do mean it. mama always busy with work. abah too. pdaus? well, i've never told him anything. we're always fighting. what about nadia? she's just too small to understand all this. friends? they're busy handling they're own problems you dummy!


not being able to tell anyone, or not to tell but just getting to talk to someone just, i assume would make me feel a whole lot better. a lot of problems came recently. i haven't even finished on getting to the solution of one problem then comes another problem. like the malay saying, " bagai jatuh ditimpa tangga". i'm not begging anyone for mercy or sympathy. i just need someone to talk. not to talk about my problems and burden them but just to simply....talk. :"(


well, someday you'll learn hanah, that everyone's not always gonna be there to comfort you. you have to learn to comfort yourself. seriously, i tried. I tried faking smiles (that worked!). i tried cracking up jokes to people.sort of. in the end, i'm just tired of it all. i think it's okay to just breakdown and cry once in a while. that's God's doing and we must appreciate it. for all the things that i have, i'm thankful for all the things, the people surrounding me. ease the pain a bit. at least You remember me and i'm grateful for that


oh God, please help me get through this. it's not easy but i promise i'll try. help me carry on.