"If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second one."

Johnny Depp 

kecil

so, as we all know (layan jela kalau tak tahu pun), hana dah nak graduate, well technically dah pun. haha. just nak wait for commencement je this may 2012.

commencement date: May 10, 2012.
*jerit kuat-kuat*

so dengan itu, saya mahu turunkan berat badan dan menyihatkan lagi tubuh badan saya. get everything toned up, baru boleh look nice masa commencement. haha. dengan itu lagi sekali, saya telah wujudkan satu list (harap boleh ikut) untuk menurunkan berat badan

1. Harus ke gym semula selepas satu semester tak bersukan langsung okay.
2. Nasi tidak boleh sama sekali di-consume sehingga bulan may 2012
3. Pergi kelas yoga untuk berlatih pernafasan dan perlukan segala relaxation yang diperlukan. Tenangkan pikiran. Plus kurang stress, kuranglah jerawat di muka ini
4. Perlu consume sebanyak mungkin plain water dalam sehari, untuk menyihatkan lagi kulit 
5. Minuman sejuk akan di-consume sekali seminggu sahaja, cause cold drinks are bad for you.
6. No more soda for me until may 2012. Need too lessen sugar intake. ada yang high kang.
7. Kurangkan makan makanan berminyak dan garam banyak sebabnya bila garam banyak, body akan retain banyak water, and then banyak la berat naik.
8. Menggunakan bola yang dibeli (yang lama dah tak pakai) setiap hujung minggu untuk senaman ringan.
9. Banyakkan 'breeze-walking' daripada jalan cam siput supaya heart rate increase dan peluh sedikit sebanyak keluar, walaupun musim sejuk ni mcm tak berapa possible
10. Akhir sekali, senyum, senyum dan terus senyum supaya face muscles saya berfungsi dengan baik dan kurang kedutan dimuka. Tidaklah nampak tua sangat kalau nak dibanding dengan usia kan. hihi.

Diri ini berharap dapat ikut list yang telah dibuat walaupun tak tau berapa persen nak letak yang diri ni boleh ikut tapi akan dicuba.

Weight yang diingini: 55kg. marilah kita lihat samada hana boleh ke tak tahan.
Oh by the way, kalau ada kawan-kawan yang nampak saya makan secara berlebihan silalah tegur saya. Tolong buangkan makanan saya dalam tong sampah, takpun awak abiskan lah. XD

Letak lagu tema sikit dari movie Honey- I believe

Heart speaks

So many people have hurt me in my life. I don't know why, but I always tend to be the one at stake. I always get blamed for others doing, and one by one people that I love leave me. For reasons that I don't deserve. My problem is, I just don't know how to stand for myself. I don't know how to be angry and that is why people tend to tear me down all over again. I'm good at listening and advising to other people, but I just can't take care of my own heart. What a pathetic girl I am. Guys come easily to me and say they love me, and without reasons they just break my heart again and again. I blame myself for that. For not being strong, easily giving in to people who don't give a shit about mine and just think about theirs. At least I know I'm not selfish. This guy just broke my heart, but I still love him, even after what he did and said. I can't believe I'm saying this, but if in the future, we got to know each other better, then there will be no second guessing.If ada jodoh. If takde then I deserve someone much much better than guys who make fun of my feelings and heart. 

Note: If you're not sure about your feelings to someone, please don't give false hopes, please don't say those three words or whatsoever. It will truly hurt especially a girl like me. If you're afraid that the truth would hurt me, well it's you that hurts me more. 

My heart's aching so badly right now, I could right a novel with what i'm going through. I should've snapped pictures and wrote a diary of what I've been going through all my life, but I'm just too afraid that it will hold me back from moving forward. So, now I declare that I'm gonna try so hard and move forward, and not find you until we meet again in the future. I need time for myself too, to think about this, and think about what you have put me through. 

letter

dear W,

i know, i'm not in a position to say this, but i miss you. Dulu everytime i'm sad, i can always go up to you and bonk my head out to you. tapi sekarang i can't. i don't know why i have this longtime crush on you and i can't seem to erase it for now. Maybe oneday i can, but i can't imagine when. Take care, be happy. I feel like a fool.

most,
H

i won't give up

the day

So, I'm still stuck in New Jersey. Days getting colder. 2 more days until we set sail on a cruise to the Bahamas and Florida. I just can't wait, the sandy beaches and not to forget hot guys with six packs, basking in the sun. Aduhai. God save me. :) Tapi, it all seem to fast. Sekejap je masa berlalu. Next semester dah last semester of senior year and I'm gonna be a graduate soon. Ingat nak sambung study je lepas tu. Whatever it is, I just wanna be a doctor. Biar la lambat and I'll be a specialist at the age of 30, insyaAllah, at least I'm doing what I wanna do, I'm being what I wanna be. Hope God will help me ease the way through. Tapi now, I just want to make the most and cherish every moment of me left in the States. The familiar faces, the environment, the weather, that I'll surely miss when I'm gone.

an escapade

okay i'm seriously psyched about my trip with two besties to Orlando and the Bahamas. Seriously PSYCHED! So, i have to really prepare and plan on what to wear during the times at the beach, dinner, sportswear if i wanted to go gym-ing on board and some other stuff. The other day i tried to find new swimming wears, but couldn't find any since it's winter. Oh well, i just need to find some of those loose wide-necked tees and some shorts. Maybe i should shop in the city. hihi. i'll post some photos when i get to the city, even though i've been there like 4 times already. haha.

Holiday mood turned on! wohoo