So many people have hurt me in my life. I don't know why, but I always tend to be the one at stake. I always get blamed for others doing, and one by one people that I love leave me. For reasons that I don't deserve. My problem is, I just don't know how to stand for myself. I don't know how to be angry and that is why people tend to tear me down all over again. I'm good at listening and advising to other people, but I just can't take care of my own heart. What a pathetic girl I am. Guys come easily to me and say they love me, and without reasons they just break my heart again and again. I blame myself for that. For not being strong, easily giving in to people who don't give a shit about mine and just think about theirs. At least I know I'm not selfish. This guy just broke my heart, but I still love him, even after what he did and said. I can't believe I'm saying this, but if in the future, we got to know each other better, then there will be no second guessing.If ada jodoh. If takde then I deserve someone much much better than guys who make fun of my feelings and heart.
Note: If you're not sure about your feelings to someone, please don't give false hopes, please don't say those three words or whatsoever. It will truly hurt especially a girl like me. If you're afraid that the truth would hurt me, well it's you that hurts me more.
My heart's aching so badly right now, I could right a novel with what i'm going through. I should've snapped pictures and wrote a diary of what I've been going through all my life, but I'm just too afraid that it will hold me back from moving forward. So, now I declare that I'm gonna try so hard and move forward, and not find you until we meet again in the future. I need time for myself too, to think about this, and think about what you have put me through.
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