NOW

I don't know why i'm posting this but i just need to let it out. I don't really know if i'm actually in love or what. I really don't know. I don't know if the person's just messin' around with me or what. For a fact, whether he does messes with me or not, i'm just plain happy. I know that he has a lot of friends and i mean a lot (You know what kind of friends). The thing is, i can't judge by his appearance, his whatsoever you call it. I just feel i'm really myself when i talk to him. I don't feel like i need to or even want to be jealous of all his friends. Seriously. 

For the time being, whether he's serious or not with me, I don't regret getting to know him. Even if it's just for a little while, at least he's made the tendency to make me happy and I kinda like it. I just like his companion. 

You might think that, "oh I'm gonna regret saying this right now later on in life". The thing is, I just want to live for the moment. For whatever reason you came into my life, I'm glad you did. :)

Some piece of advice. Don't always think about what you want in the future. Think about now. Live like there's no tomorrow. Do everything and cherish every little thing thats happening now. Because what you do now will have a huge impact on what will become tomorrow. That's the main key. You can't have future low and behold if you're only gonna daydream and not do anything. So what's there to waste? NOTHING, if you start to make a move now. ACT now! EVERYTHING now! Don't wait until tomorrow cause hun, you'll never know if you're gonna get it past tonight. Think about it.

p/s: i don't think this applies to just love conditions. It applies to all. :)

NELLY & KELLY

Remember back in 2002 I think, they were oh so hit with the song 'Dilemma'. Now they made a come back with the song 'Gone'/ seriously lagu ni sangat style and matured la daripada the previous one tu. It kinda showed that they've grown and flourished and they jumpe balik after a few years. even the lyrics pon were parallel. Like

In 'Dilemma': I met this chick she moved right up the block from me...

In 'Gone': Remember that chick that lived right up the block from me, i seen her yesterday yeah she still fly...

Seriously cute gileeeee! kenape la dorang ni tak kawen je terus. haha, but both the song really shows love and affection in their kinda way. kalau la aku ade pakwe, nak wat lagu kitorang gak la. haha. cam sweet je. So tgk both video clip from 2002 and 2011 ni k. can't believe 9 yrs has past. cepat je. enjoy!

Dilemma 2002

Gone 2011

IF YOU FEEL LIKE FALLING

If you feel like falling, heads up and keep on moving.

If you feel like falling take a glass of coffee/tea, or juice if you don't take caffeine to get you through the day

If you feel like falling, breezewalk in the morning to get that little bit of fresh air left before it's being polluted throughout the day

If you feel like falling, look through your box of 'good old things' that you have kept 

If you feel like falling, do a makeover! boost that confident level y'all!

Whatever you do, life only comes once. If you feel like falling and plan to fall, just drop that plan and make a better plan. Like...treat me perry's ice cream by the harbor...hehe nola. Just take it as an obstacle that you have to overcome. Think of all the things that you will be missing while you grieve. For every rainbow to see, you must endure the rain first. 

Don't worry. Gotta keep your heads up. You'll be fine :)

Susah nak cari member

Susah nak cari member yang tak lupe member bile ade awek/pakwe.
Susah nak cari member yang ingat member yang dah bertahun-tahun kawan sebab member baru.
Susah nak cari member yang tak tikam kita dari belakang.
Susah nak cari member yang nak bertegur sapa ngan kita bila berjauhan.
Susah nak cari member yang salu ada untuk kita senang dan susah.
Susah nak cari member yang sayang kita bukan sebab diri kita, tapi sebab duit dan populariti kita
Susah nak cari member yang salu tegur kita bila kita wat salah.
Susah nak cari member yang nak jadi 'a really good listener' for masalah kita.

Susah sangat nak cari member-member ni. Tapi bila kita dah sekali dapat, kita patut hargai mereka sebetul-betulnya. jangan biar diri mereka feel like crap. Sentiasa tanya khabar adakah sihat atau tidak kerana kita taktau bile ajal maut. Semua di tangan Tuhan. Macam mane sibuk kita sekalipun, always make time to just say 'Hi' and ask 'How are you?'.Takut kita ada buat salah kat mereka tapi kita tak sempat minta maaf. Mungkin orang kata kita ni asyik merungut sebab member tak ingat kita. tapi sebenarnya tak pun. Saling mengingati. Itu tujuan hidup sesama manusia. :)

ANGKASA

This is a song from Diandra Arjunaidi that i really like. You guys should hear it. :)

Ignore the guy punya suara. this is the best version i got of her. Yang kt no black tie she screwed it a bit at the end.

F, this is for you

Oh, ini kisah sedihku

Aku mengharapkan sesuatu yang tak pasti

Di saat kau disisiku

Hidupku terasa indah

Hidupku penuh warna-warni

Seperti pelangi

Ku akui kurindukanmu

Saat kau tiada di sisi

Hancur hatiku bila kau sudah berpunya

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Tengok semua gambar you tanpa jemu

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Adakah kau juga memikirkanku

Semua gambar-gambar you bersama si dia

Dalam caption "nya" kata mu "aku cinta dia"

Reaksiku meluat tapi sedih pun ada

memang kau ini player tapi malangnya ku mahu kau jua

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Tengok semua gambar you tanpa jemu

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Adakah kau juga memikirkanku

Kau seolah memberiku harapan

Di saat sunyi rasa kesepian

Kau seolah memainkan perasaan

Inginku membencimu tapi aku yang tak tahan

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Tengok semua gambar you tanpa jemu

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Adakah kau juga memikirkanku

I stalk your profile when I miss you

Tengok semua gambar you tanpa jemu

Adakah cinta di balas....

Tak ingin kujalani cinta yang begini

Yang kutahu cinta itu indah

Tak ingin kurasakan jiwa yang tak tenang

Kumahu kau tetap disisiku.

but i know that it's all too good to be true :(

ALHAMDULILLAH

Praise be to the Almighty for giving me great results for this semester. it's the first of getting straight A's since the start of university's life. seriously, tak pena sangka dapat result cani. terus sujud syukur aku.

It's true that when you're close to the ONE, he will always be there to help you, through thick and thin. even though you can't literally see HIM, but his presence can still be sensed.

Never stop remembering Him. For whatever you do, just remember Him and you're life will be complete. InsyaAllah. :)

Skang ni just nk kene tgu release gpa for this sem n also cgpa. hope everything's gonna be fine.plus nak start intern ni,  supervisor pon tak bls email lagi. sabar jela. susah jugak dapat supervisor polis ni. haha

Quit complaining, and start finding real friends hanah. one's that really cares for you :)

Dengan lafaz Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, saya isytiharkan diri saya sendiri miskin! huwaaa. nak nanges je rasa

babeq>>name baru

As penanda kepada berakhirnya segala kesengsaraan dunia, adalah kitorang wat barbeque beramai-ramai yang bertempat di no. berapa ntah amherst street. ghopenye ade garage kt blkg umah dorang tuh. hahaha.  okey menu2 yang dibakarkan adalah kambing dan ayam. nyeehooo. sodap kobona eh. basah ketiak den bakar sumo tuh. dengan asap masuk mata. menangis nangis haaa bakar. tapi outcome die terbaik. terima kasih kepada encik2 yang me'marinate'kan daging2 tersebut. hihihi. Tuan rumah siap pasang speaker kuat gila macam takda neighbor kat sebelah. haha. tapi takpe. orang tak mara.

Sume org pakai baju cantik2. saya tak termasukla sebab tak cantik. pakai pape pon jadi tak cantik. haha. award plg glamor jatuh kepada due org. sharifah zawani dan juga nur farhanah mustafa. bukan main lagi dorang berhias pegi bbq tuh. siap beli baju baru semata2 sebab bbq tuh. haha. jangan mara fana :))

Everbody had soo much fun. i can't believe that next year's gonna be my last spring/summer here. serious taknak ingat. haha. live for the moment la dulu.

ni la cik yang kongsi award ngn fana tuh. amboi!

ni la yang beli baju semata2 ntok bbq tuh. :)

 credits to camera azizi. hehe. i love you guys mucho2. thanks for making me a wonderful buffalo experience. eiceh. cam kasi iklan kt university plak. haha

erie canal harbor

ok seriously seronok gile aku bile da habes xm pharmacology yg ngengong tuh. sumpah exam paling hmmm speechless la dowh. tapi pasrah jela kan da buat. then tgh hr tuh kwn aku, wani dgn randomnye mengajak aku kuar pg jalan. mmg jln betul la hari tuh. haha. sume teruja kan pg tgk kapal. tgk dari luar je la. almaklomla. nak masuk nye mahal. haha. before that ktorg p la makan kt west chippewa street. punyala cari kedai nak makan ape last2 makan kt mexican food restaurant je. senang cite. not bad la the food. jalan punya jalan punya jalan tak henti henti. kaki aku pon dah penat.

aku: alippp, mane gerai eskem nye nihhhh. jauh lagi ke?

alip: ade ade. kat ujung tuh. kene jalan lagi. 

teruskan berjalan. da nak sampai penghujunh tuh, nampak lambang eskem atas kon. aku dahh menjerit2 eskem dah, dala the past few days ni panas gile, sumpah terbakar kulit. heish, panas susah, sejuk pon susah. susah la cani. hihihi. sampai je ktorang beratur la beli eskem. nikmat benor makannya di hari2 panas. hehe. 

last skali ktorg pg la galleria. serious mood down gile tgk sume barang tak best. takleh nk bli ape. masuk aldo kecewa, masuk footwear kecewa lagi, abercrombie pon sama. stress badan. wani moodyy je malam tuh. tapi takpe wani. nnt kte pg makan eskem lagi. takpon makan kt chocolate bar k :) haaa tgk la gambar2nye.

credits to camera alip for all the wonderful pictures :))

DONEDY DONE!

Am officially done with junior year! well technically first sem of senior yr. hehehe. it was awesome but the last paper totally sucked! how do you expect me to remember similar drug type name for different functions. darn you pharmacology. i hope you treat me well. at least get me a B. haha. and so the summer adventure begin. can't wait for darien lake with ma beautiful girls. Girls day out wehoooo! n then midwest games. ingatkan nak wat teaser sket for preview. hehe. plus igt nak participate in midwest idol. agak2 best tak? haha. video editing mesti kene terbaik. hehe. needs to really start practicing for my appearance on stage for midwest. tak prepare ape2 lagi. teramat la cuak. ooohh so much to settle. adoiii. will update later with photos of me during the summer. can't wait!

oohhhh i'm in love with Juda-as Juda-as.

                   (gaga,2011)

happy mother's day!

Of course, the 2nd Sunday of May comes again, and everybody all around the world would celebrate it. bagi bunga la, chocolate la dedicate lagu lagu ibu la. macam macam lagi for they're mothers. tapi saya lain. 

cantiknyaa!nak baju tuh. haha

nama: Shahrul Bariah Mohd Yusof

hubungan: mama kepada saya :)

umur: of course la muda lagi. tgk anak la. haha

kecantikan: paling cantik di dunia saya rasa :D

kemahiran memasak: tiptop! kecuali bile dah lama ak masak sume jadi hangus.(sorry mama. haha)

kemahiran ber'shopping': paling power. suka bila mama bawak saya sekali la

Aside of all of the above, i just love you mama. even though nak cakap depan depan i segan.aauuwww. masa kecik kecik mama asyik kene layan je mulut aku yg suke membalas ni.tapi dah besar ni da ada otak boleh cool la. tapi mama still camtu tapi aku tau die sayang aku. ayat cliche: mak mana yang tak sayang anaknye. tapi betul la ayat tuh. mak yang buang buang anak tuh insaflah. taktau nak tulis ape. speechless actually. haha. 

tak sabar nak balik msia and meet this lovely woman and go shopping and kita p dengar live band nak ma? and also let's do all the girls' stuff cam cuci cuci rambut, pegi facial, kaler kaler rambut, hehehe. karaoke kat rumah aunty ita mau nggak? 

I HEART YOU MAMA!

Finals

let the games begin. well final exams la kan. soo tomorrow ada 2 exams. at 8am is chemistry of biological systems and at 4pm is cell and tissue culture. seriously, there's a lot to read and memorize for tissue culture and the best part of it is it's cumulative and there are no multiple choice questions. beat that! but what to do. it's part of the journey to fulfilling the 'so-called' biotechnology dream. 


to be honest i don't even know why i'm doing this major. seriously. i think i just love getting myself tortured. and i think that's the thrill of life. doing what challenges you the most. if you don't learn and do the things you don't like, then how will you know what it'll be like in the end. so, sometimes making sure that you do what you like does not apply by itself but it is accompanied by doing things you don't like. in the end, you won't lose anything. am i right? :)


well, to those people that are having their final exams especially those that are taking the same as i do, here's A BIG FAT GOOD LUCK to you guys( and to myself of course). and i am positive that we're gonna make it through. keep your heads up and drop your worries. :))