smile

terlalu banyak dugaan yang perlu aku telan sekarang. mungkin ni semua balasan atas dosa-dosa past years aku. memang rasa nak breakdown and cry(padahal dah pun). tapi tidak mengapa. akan kuterus tersenyum kerana 'life is still worthwhile'. just like the song smile. lagu ni selalu buat aku tersenyum dan sedikit sebanyak terubat frustration aku. macam fake je kan aku ni. :) tapi takpe. terpulanglah kat semua. semua berhak untuk judge. semua berhak to have a say. tapi bila apa yang disampaikan telah ditokok tambah, telah bertukar, even though kita sedih, tapi takpe. kita senyum je. teringat pulak masa kecik kecik dulu main telefon buruk. haha. terima semua. ni semua ketentuan Dia. this is the path that has been made for us. kalau nak gerak ke depan, kene harung. taknak benti jela kat situ masak and survive jela ngan apa yang ada. redha dengan segala ketentuanNya. semua aku sayang. tidak kira kalau ada orang nak batu api sekali pun. 

sekarang ni aku just kene fokus in graduating and help mama take care of my sister. she needs me the most right now. sedih when you get to know the real result, and be mentally prepared for the days to come. insyaAllah she'll make it through. mama'll make it through. i'll make it through. 

banyak version lagu smile ni. diana ross ada, barbara streisand ada tapi aku tetap suka nat king cole nye version. wish that i could go back in time and go to his concerts. apa-apa pun bak kata pengetua dalam cerita 6progresif, "hidup ini kene moving on!" hihi kelakar je cerita tu

deep

sometimes you find yourself missing people that matters to you. unconsciously. you don't know how it happened but they just refuse to talk to you. sometimes you just hope that they're okay even if you're not talking to them. sometimes you just make mistakes but you don't know the cause of it. missing the people you miss, but can't get to talk to them just hurts. release the fact that there's always space for second chances. deep down inside, nobody understands. pray for their health, pray for their happiness. never fails. even if anything goes wrong. cause, we humans are here to support each other. 

lets hope for the better. :)

we found love

everything's getting great day by day. 

hoping that there'd be no more quarrels over simple matters.

no more sadness seen, just joy and happiness.

next year marks the start of a new beginning.

i just hope so. 

make me happy, make me feel loved.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA

happy birthday my cute little sister. may Allah bless and grant you health just like other people. kak hana love you

KIMBRA

currently addicted to the cuteness and funk-ness of Kimbra. chii chooo cuteeee

dear nadiah, 

kak hanah prays the best for you, be strong and stay strong for all of us. cause we know your tough. hana janji tak jauh dari nadiah dah. please wait for me. stay fit. 

love,

kak hanah

Distance

i'm just not a good daughter, to both of my parents. i don't know what to do when kita kat tengah-tengah between our divorced parents. and it's always me who got blamed. what should i do? is it because i'm the eldest. i always screw everything up, with my own family, my friends, even boyfriends. i try to better but i'm always caught up in the situation. maybe i should stay away from everybody to avoid any misunderstanding, me hurting others' feelings. maybe i should start a new life somewhere else.

abah, hanah rindu :'(

seronok bah!

okay hana tau memang lambat gila hana update pasal ni. tapiii, my first experience in white water rafting, pergghh terbaik! dah qualified dah for black water rafting. haha. just kidding, but it was awesome. so we had breakfast, then the whole bus waited for kar wei to finish his exam( sorry kar wei! haha). it was actually an hour an a half drive to Letchworth state park. Sampai je mmg terpegun dengan keindahannya. eiceeh. tapi seriously, the mini grand canyon tu mmg sgt cantik. dah masuk dalam park, kene masuk lagi. sampai kedalam dalamnya. memang takda line fon. so kalau apa2 jadi mmg kene guna ranger je la. penat letih semuala. indescribable. tapi memang fun sebab pegi ngan kawan kawan kan. maklumla, final year. abis ronggeng, padahal sok ada exam ni. haha. soo try2 r tengok gambar. mana tau korang interested nak pegi ke kan. hikhik. 

pedo pedo -captain mang

sempat berposing haha

UB MaSA :)

ps: credits to bobby melayu for the pics

i officially snapped. i'm sorry F. :'(